A response

 I want to give the love in my heart, but I can't get past the anger hiding in the shadows. It is unnecessary anger, but its there. It is hard to deal with things that you avoided for so many years. 

How do I love others when I am struggling to even love myself... to hold on to God's love. I am not meeting my expectations. I know I will always fall short. I am so undeserving of God's love. 

I thank God... for being God.